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THis was my last day of school/work! yeah! I am ready for summer! I missed my end of the year party because I had to take the boys to the DR. appt. It went well except the shots were awful,,, J had 5 and he tensed up so bad that his leg was so hard she practically had to jam the needle in to get it in! He screamed bloody murder and it took 2 of us to hold him down. THEN O didn't want to get his 1 little shot because he was scared after watching J.

Also, the Dr. said that she noticed a significant heart arythmia issue in JB that sounded like it could be a sick sinus syndrome. I am pretty sick about that. and so worried he is going to have his dad's heart and at such an early age! OH, I wish Donnie was here to help deal with this and maybe he could figure out exactly what Jett is feeling since he knew what weird heart stuff felt like! Damn him! I am starting to curse the day I meet DB! and why was I so stupid to have kids with him!

O's heartsounded fine and had grown just a little bit. She said, at least he is growing but still a "little twerp!"

we will meet with Dr. Washington, soon!

Monday, June 4, 2007

Ron is still experiencing pain and continues to grimace when moved. Thank you for your continued prayers and support.

Being thankful.

I'm not making enough money right now. But in two months I will be empowered with the ability to change that.

Next up I must save enough to be able to get my own place. That's probably possible within the next one-three years.

My goal will be to rent my own place within the next year, which means I need to

SAVE !! SAVE !! SAVE !!

Of course before buying/renting my own place I need to accomplish the goals I set for myself prior to this log.

So let's talk about that for a minute.

Name change - I want to use Grandma's name as my last name. Priscilla Grace. I like the sound of that.SAVE!

Citizenship - I'd like to become an american citizen before re-marriage comes into the picture.

Divorce - I've been procrastinating step 1 for a while now. I need to resign from PALsUSA and talk to... no! I can't talk to jerks and assholes anymore. It's just not in me to deal with them. So .. I'll just email him and take it from there.

I just hate the idea of being legally attached to someone. On second thoughts, it's really only on paper. And once I fax over my resignation to PALs and if Cora still can't help me, I'm going to call another attorney or just go the court clerk like John said. I wish I still didn't believe in marriage, but the fact that I'm in love with a beautiful gentle-giant from Pennsylvania opens the door to making him happy. He's a pretty traditional guy.. I really don't know that he'd be into just living together. But either way I need to get legally divorced from John. So that's it then, this month my goals are - A - SAVE! SAVE! SAVE! B - Study 2020 and get as much product knowledge as possible. C - Scan resignation to PALS and keep working on the divorce. I don't know the outcome of that one, and honestly it worries me now that I've met someone as amazing as Steven Todd Vandrew. But some time is available. I have three years to get my shit together. I have three more years before I can't do it anymore. I have a feeling though that that's not enough time. If Steve likes me that much, he could ask me to marry him before that time. I don't have three years!! Damn it! Oh God! What do I do! I stay strong and hold on. Because if anything I have hope and that's what matters. Hope is better than nothing at all. The dream is better than the present. Look forward, work hard, believe in the system God has created and do my best to believe and hold on. Coming back to the goals.. I can't spend any money on clothes or shoes this month. I need to do things to stay relaxed. I'll need all the strength I can muster up. For starters, I can't hang out with Summer that much anymore. Ryan neither. I will need to hook up or develop relationship with people that feed my faith and add to my strength.. not take from me. I have nothing to give right now. All I have is for Steven and Corrine. I guess I could email Jane. But damn it, there isn't anyone that I can talk to about my pending divorce. Maybe there is.. Let's see, perhaps he's willing to talk to me. For fun I'll salsa, or drink by myself at home. To relax I must go to the beach at least once a week. Once I have some savings I'll pick up some blades and start that in the morning. Until then I can just walk in the mornings or after work by the canal. For entertainment there's dollar movies and tv. For information there's the internet and the library. Ok.

hi my name is brittany...so i had a bf but dump him...he was ungly...i went to my aunts and rode a hores name dan..well that is all i have to say i hope u type me back....

your friend,,

brittany

That Saturday was kinda boring, the girls and I went to the market that the woman told us about! and we stayed home that night and made some sandwitches! We knew we had to get a good night sleep because we had to get up early the next morning for a day trip into La Cuidad de Mexico ( Mexico City). Tres, Ross, Neil, and Jessica planned on going out for one beer and being back by 11pm. I went to bed kind of homesick, but i think i was the fact that not talking about justin was getting to me! I dont know i thought going somewhere with people not knowing what has gone on in my life lately would be good, but i think its more difficult. I guess we will see what happens to my sanity, mabey its part of the healing process!

Sunday moring came all to soon! I had to get up at 6 am and be at the bus by 730am. I met the girls in the courtyard around 7am and found out the Niel and Jessica did what they siad they were going to do, have one beer and be back by 11:30. Tres and Ross went out and partied hard. We could not find them anyewhere. We went to the ATM and then to the bus stop. We found glassy eyed Tres there, and still Ross was nowhere to be found! we loaded the bus around 745 and on the schedual it said we were leaving at 8. right as the driving turned on the bus. We could see Ross running towards us. Jessica said she had kicked him door like crazy to try and wake him up but he didnt wake up. He siad he just opened his eyes and saw that it was 745. i guess he just hauled ass and made it on time! The trip over all sucked! The ride to Mexico City was beautiful, but the contents of the trip were fun at all! Before we loaded off the bus, the tour guiedes advised what not to do. They said it all in spanish, and Tres translated. he told me to walk every where by my self, take candy from strangers, go to bath rooms alone, and take drugs if offered. Of course he was kidding! We visted 3 musuems and had the most gross expensive lunch ever! We got to shop a total of 10 mintues! Sharkira was haveing a free concert in the zocolo ( city square). the tour guides siad the they city was expecing over a million people to be there that night. The catherdral in the zocolo was the largest Cathedral in the Western Hemisphere. I went inside briefly and bought my parents some rosaries from some little nuns!

the next week consisted of early nights, and exams on Thrusday ( may 31)....i am tired i will start this one tommorrow!

Sunday, June 3 - 9:30 p.m.

Ron is communicating more by facial movement. He seems to be more alert and is experiencing pain (which is a clear indication of his nerves growing back). They are continually giving him medication to relieve his pain.

ok picking up where i left off about thursday! Yes jessica met a very cute guy! And i think we finished the night staggering home! Tres carried me some of the way! thank god!

Friday morning was not fun! I remeber the night before when i got to my room, i fell on my bed, stripped down to me undiesand passing out! I had to go to the bath room a few times, and if only i had camera! I had one arm over my bare chest and the other arm holding on the wall so i could hop on my good foot to the bath room down the hall. Thank goodness my roomate had not arived and any of my suitemates werent up useing the restroom at the same time because they would of been in for a peep show! I woke up with my foot throbing and a really bad hangover! But i did wake up by myself, 9 am the cleaning crew came in and was telling my something an Spanish! All igot out of it was I had to leave my room for about 20 min so they could spray for bugs! I got up, got dressed and hobbled out into the court yard where i was met with all the other hung over girls! If only we had our cameras! All the mexican cleaning ladies were laughing at us, not only because we looked so darn beautiful but i was hobbling and hung over! I then went a checked my facebook, and went back to bed! I woke up around 2 pm jumped in the shower and tried to start my day! I talk to the crew and we decided we would go the movies! believe it or not it only cost 4.75$ for a movie here! isnt that crazy! So we went to Triangleo Mall, went to Applebees for dinner! ( it was kind sad because Applebees was the last place justin and i went out for dinner 2 days before he passed away) But i held up for the most part! when we walked in I walked past a table of people speaking english! we sat down and a woman came over and asked where we were from. Turns out she was from OKLAHOMA! her family was transfered to Puebla, because of her husbands work. she let us know a few tips where to eat and how to get around. She even gave us her number if we needed anything like a free meal or a ride! She introduced us to her 4th grade daughter, how was completely fulent in Spanish after only living here for one year! crazy huh! After eating out cheese burgers and jessica sharring a borwnie sunday. We went saw Pirates if the Carr. As i was sitting down there. The boys reminded me that the night before i let them in on the fact that my chest is not real. Im not going to lie! I was little embarressed! the movies was long and borring! After the movie it was hard trying to call a cab! It was porring down rain and my ankle was killing me! After sitting at the mall for an hour the cab finally came ... it was about 12:30 midnight! It was the end of another day in Puebla!